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“This record was delayed for 3 years!” The type of story everyone is a familiar with at this point. Except this story takes place 10 years ago on a rainy night September 2011. Ten years ago this month, I was involved in a car accident that robbed me of my memory, temporarily disabled my hands so I couldn't even play music(!), and left me with a brain injury that triggered an autoimmune disease. The chronicling of this journey resulted in the recording of The Ballad of the Bad Luck Boy. Each track a testament of ten years. Ten long years riddled with denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and finally acceptance.
The Ballad of the Bad Luck Boy is a freak whirlwind of rock opera ecstasy. Billowing out with reckless abandon, guitars snarling at full tilt, pained wails declaring the highs and woes of the yearly recount, Cellophane Jane takes no prisoners on this journey through the pages of time. In with a whisper and out with a bang, Ballad will take you on an electric joyride through the final swings of summer, straight through the windshield of your dad’s Oldsmobile, and lead you deeper into the unfolding labyrinth of mental madness! From cheeky jabs at the collegial money pit in “Graduation,” to the album’s jaunty pièce de resistance, “Dancing with De Quervain’s,” Ballad aims to wow at every corner with wit and woe wrapped up wildly in electric mayhem. The vulnerability of topics like amnesia, debilitating diseases, and the all-consuming questioning of self confidence are laid bare like a gallery of scars; some may last a lifetime while others slowly fade. It’s through the passage of time that these songs stand as a testament to the trials and triumphs of recovery.
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Lexi Moda Vallis - Vocals / Guitar / Bass / Percussion
Nathan Taylor – Drums
Mike Abbadini – Keys
Connor Peterson – Bass (5 Intro)
Recorded, Mixed, & Mastered at
Moda Co. Recording, Cleveland, Ohio October 2019 - April2 2022
© ℗ 2022 Moda Co. Music
FVR0010 2022 Fashion Valley Records
All Rights Reserved
Dedicated to Denny Massari: Through whom the impossible was always achievable with a nod & a wink.
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Waited for you my son
You’ve come all this way
to be what you ought to be
It never crossed my mind
Passages of time would fade
Go up
And so they say
it’s written on the graves
of people who have lost their way
But you, my friend are with me till the end
No matter what those people have to say
And on we ride abandoned suicide long before I knew what I could say
It’s with this life that I put down the knife and put away those silly games we played
Well you know how it goes, the story’s old there’s no more to be told
You might just be god almighty busting down my door
I was never meant for all this feeling
Memories are lost in the revealing
And in the light of that moonlit night
I never thought I’d end up this way
How easily it falls away from me and slips through my fingers
Well you know how it goes, the story’s old there’s no more to be told
You might just be god almighty busting down my door
I was never meant for all this feeling
Memories are lost in the revealing
I can’t see it
You don’t believe it
Everything I knew before
It doesn’t matter anymore
Broken bruised and battered now
You’re only seventeen
Car crash queen you should’ve been
A legend on the screen
I was never meant for all this feeling
Memories are lost in the revealing
I was never meant for all this feeling
Memories are lost in the revealing
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Serpentine at seventeen
Smooth moves landed you on the hard grooves
she was the knife and I the slice
pulled apart rolled the dice
They pick you up put you back on solid ground
Watch your head hit that cold hard concrete ground
it was the knife, and I the slice
Pulled apart rolled the dice
Hold till they fold their cards just right
Play it safe, say goodnight
Seventeen at twenty-t
Shuffling fool out on E.C. avenue
Just one more thing before I call it all off
Let me be the one to shoot first in the stand off
Hold till they fold their cards just right
In just three days let it fall down and make things right
Play it safe say goodnight
let it be to all the ones who caused you strife
Let me be the one to take it on home on the third night
You hold you fold they call your bluff
You hold you fold they call your name
Hold till they fold their cards just right
In just three days let it fall down, repay all who caused you strife
Play it safe say goodnight
Let it be to all the ones who caused you strife
Let me be the one to take it on home on the third night
You grew older older older older older old
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If I take another step I think I just might slip into the bramble
Tripping on a memory, you were just a dream it seems
Those little hands that bind you don’t mean a thing like I do
You’re just as blind as I knew
Tripping on a memory, you were just a dream it seems
Beneath the sunny skies you lie
The breath of morning’s just a sigh
And so we take another step into the sunrise
The dawn is calling out I’m
Tripping on a memory, you were just a dream it seems
And as I turn into the sky
The thunderclouds just pass me by
In a dream I believe
Two hands guide me out into the echoing dawn
In a dream
Open your heart and let love in
Surrender yourself to the one that you love
The One
And if I take another step I think I just might slip into the bramble neath the roaring sky I’m
Tripping on a memory, you were just a dream it seems
Furthest from my everything, you were just a memory
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Silver morning, light adorning
The giver and taker hold the line
Still you heed the warning
Make up your mind
you’ve said it this time
be what you want to be
Never a thought in his head unless the heart go to bed
Never forget what honest said
Silver Morning
Slowly to pull on the thread unravel it till you’re dead
It comes in waves
It comes in waves
It’s bound to take your soul away
And bring you back to better days
When you were feeling the sundown
Don’t go away
When you were feeling the let down
So far away
When you were feeling the sundown
Don’t go away
Don’t go away
Silver Morning
Light Adorning
It comes in waves
It comes in waves
It’s bound to take your soul away
It comes in waves
It comes in waves
it comes
it comes
it comes
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Too much money to spend on anybody
I’m bleeding it out in the money-go-round
Where does it all go, nobody ever knows
But still the bills it spills blood on my paper
Never in my life I said
Would I get to be so red
Until I got out alive
I’ve been waiting for this moment all of my life
Little girl with your bushy blonde hair
Walking around like you’re so debonaire
You’ll never see them take the piss out of you
And now you’re broke so what’ll you do
Never gonna get a decent bed
Never gonna get to spend your bread
Never gonna see you for what you were supposed to be
In the light oh so bright I shook the hand of some man
Apparently he decides if I should leave or I thrive
Or I thrive
Yeah
Now back to you
Never gonna be the one at nineteen
Never gonna be the one the college grad
Never gonna be the one at nineteen
Never gonna be the one yeah
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Sick sick so very sick so sick of being ill
One hand’s too many hands but two just won’t do
I’ll see you in the morning, what becomes of you now
Leaving the left better off left alone
Two wrongs don’t make a right write right again
How right you are, you’ll never be a star
You don’t know what I wouldn’t do for just two more phalangese man
Faking hard hard to fake just keep on reciting the claims that you stake
I’ll love you forever until you’re feeling better
I don’t need your sympathy
Too bad I can’t pretend it doesn’t bother me at all
This sickness is killing me
I don’t wanna die
I want to get out
And do better, better it’s true
I did my time, you just wait and see
I suggest you keep your distance
It feels like a dream to me
Don’t give up
So let me begin, start it over again
I did my time and now I’m alive
and i’m better better it’s true
I did my time and this is how it goes
You’re feeling better now you’re worse
You’re feeling better now you’re very worse
Leave me alone I need some rest
You’re feeling better now you’re worse
You’re feeling better now you’re very worse
Leave me alone I need some rest
You’re feeling better now you’re worse
You’re feeling better now you’re very worse
Leave me alone I need some rest
So let me begin start it over again
I did my time
And now
I’m alive
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Bury me piece by piece
Underneath the juniper tree
It’s where i belong singing my song
Sitting still for everyone
Shining on the seventh day like the Rays out of the setting sun
Won’t you bring me someone to Make my heart flutter and sway
Without love what do you live for Seasons change the reason why
And with a Judas kiss you give me this
Euphoria and bliss its true
How rude it’s out of the blue
Feels like yesterday
Weeping willow reap what you sow
A whisper in the wind of your name
If i gave you everything I had
And I traded everything i own
It wouldn’t be enough and it wouldn’t satisfy you
The summer breeze is here today
The clouds have all been washed away
And finally i see what I’ve been missing
Without love what do you live for Seasons change the reason why
And with a Judas kiss you give me this
Euphoria and bliss it’s true
How rude it’s out of the blue
Feels like yesterday
Weeping willow reap what you sow
I’ll see you in the afterglow
How rude its out of the blue
Feels like yesterday
Weeping willow reap what you sow
A whisper in the wind of your name
Weeping willow reap what you sow
A whisper in the wind of your name
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It seems we all decide to run and hide from this our living end
but still we’re reaching out for more we know the tide is at the shore
Early morning in the moonlight underneath the star shine
Spell a secret to the shadows whisper in the dark light
If we get along will we be so strong that we see it through?
never have I ever felt like this
a moment slips and your still turning every time we kiss
Early morning in the moonlight underneath the star shine
Spell a secret to the shadows whisper in the dark light
If we get along will we be so strong that we say i do
Could love be so wrong
If we get along will we be so strong that we will carry on?
If we get along will we be so strong that we see it through?
Could love be so wrong
If we get along will we be so strong that we will carry on?
Yeah
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Come on come in let the show begin
The air is electric the room is on fire
Under the spotlight the feeling expires
The lights are low
Enjoy the show
You know the reason you’re depressed
I don’t want to be the great pretender
Why should I be anyone but me?
It’s up to your heart to be open from the start
Come on come in let the show begin
The people are talking they’re looking for more
There’s no denying you’ll settle the score
The lights are low
Enjoy the show
I don’t want to be the great pretender
Why should I be anyone but me?
I said I don’t want to be
I don’t want to see the great pretender
Why should I be, why should I see anyone but me?
I don’t want to be the great pretender
Why should I be anyone but me
Yeah I don’t want to be the great pretender
Why should I be anyone but me
Yeah I don’t want to be the great pretender
Why should I be anyone but me
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I’ve been thinking of another time before time began
I’ve been dreaming of another life before life begin
Seems like yesterday can’t be this way
No matter how I try to hold on it fades
Take on step outside the door
Can’t look back not anymore
One more step closing the door
Can’t look back not anymore
Let it all go
Leave it behind
It’s not you now
You don’t need to hide
Dreaming of times we loved
Never knowing what we’re after
In the end it’s all that matters
Even though it seems like yesterday can’t be this way
No matter how I try to hold on it fades
Dreaming of times we loved
Never knowing what we’re after
In the end it’s all that matters
Dreaming of times we loved
In the shadow of hereafter
On and on we turn the chapter
I believe it happened for a reason
I believe the changing of the season
I’m just a long lost toy
This is the Ballad of the Bad Luck Boy
And I know I’m gonna change it
yes I know I’m gonna change it
I believe the ending is just the start of a brand new beginning
When I was younger
I used to believe in the palm of my hand
Lost in the wonder of the lines and the plans
Seems like yesterday can’t be this way
No matter how I try to hold on it fades
When I was younger
When I was younger
Take on step outside the door
Can’t look back not anymore
One more step, closing the door
It comes in waves
It comes in waves
It’s bound to take your soul away
It comes in waves
It comes in waves
It’s bound to take your soul away
It comes in waves
It comes in waves
It’s bound to take your soul away
And bring you back to better days